the night that highschool ended

Barry wasn't liked in the community.he had bright orange hair and would always say things like
" good day to ya Miss-s-es tit"
weird
_______young fellow_________________never bothered anyone, except miss tit. She was a tall red headed prude that would put her reading glasses on and examine Barry's hair in the morning before he was off to high school, Barry couldn't wait to leave high school so today was very special to him it was graduation the day that symbolized his freedom from the clutches of oppression and his mother, Barry had a nose the size of a deluxe can opener


____IT
_______was
_____________FUCKIN' HUGE__________________________________
everyone knew he was a brown nose to the science teacher and the gym coach
so every morning on his way to School the neighborhood kids
Stevie and Samuel would shit on his lunch pale and tell Barry that he was still being
breast fed by miss tit.

Barry eventually went to the mental hospital in the 11Th grade for a field trip
for psychology class. lolly use to sit behind him and laugh at all his imaginary jokes he'd whisper, "why did the moon cross the sky?...to see moonlight..."
a little chuckle would appear, Barry's nose would blush as Cindy would sit parallel to his lap; on good day you could see up her skirt. Barry went to church on Sundays and soaked communion bread into his grape juice and linger around the nursery
b/c he said
"it has the scent of God and purity."
________________he had little friends w/ bible verses and the
one time he swore he saw an angel, was in a camp sleep over after a bible story about a slave turned ruler. the magic he once saw on Sunday mornings left him after his beloved nanny passed away he knew that God made some kind of bargain with someone for mortality...

the last creation becomes the creator

________________you know you're
something' else____________________
______________A real son o' bitch
________________78 goin' on 89_____________-
you tough
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~son o bitch
you're making up for poorly written poems
by putting in all these weird [][][][][][][][]
______________________________LETTERS))))AND LINES THAT MAKE KNOW SENSE


SO IF THE MAGIC


OF MAN is in

what he built
_____________________________________________ then the warfare of
creation
is looking for the
destruction of
error
in its last moments of
paving roads,
flying in the clouds,
watching TV
ready to call it quits
and flip the channel
to comedy central
I hear a voice
speak
to me and tells me
the lesson of life is
consumer packaged and waiting for
__________________-me============
at the post office
and , to think, all I have to do is go and pick it......
.............................. up.........................

kill the freshman

nervous about the story


it was just another day


without a pencil

two exams later

and a fresh tattoo
on my right upper arm

one

young girl would come up and
slap it


"that's not real...!"

freshman
get
the wax out of yr ear
it's a fresh tattoo
of
a
powerhouse b-boy
holding a pencil and a microphone


"that's stupid"



what do you know.....................
fuckin' freshman

the last million dollar

necktie
I wore was at
a
anti-prom

party

I threw
for the rejects

and the one girl
I wanted to ask out to the prom was there

and she asked me why I didn't ask her
out?


"well I thought...you ha-d--d a date so I ...I..just..."


"you're a loser
with tattoos"

well that's the selling point

the first kid to get tattoos in high school

name tatt'd
on my belly
_____________________ in old english
preserving the
liberty
of poerty
that's been
____________hidden



by a time period
________________so warpped

that it forgot

how to
_______smile
crook----ed

..........:::::::……………,,,,,,,,,,,
hummmmmmmmmmmm.....
wow...the beer was ice cold
and I couldn't
bring a
single woman

into my bed
that night

anti-prom
anti-über love

indie rock played soft

from the radio station
89.7 KRUI

we drank
with college students
and made love
with kegs and became

DRUNKS
scholars

Grown up to live this existence

that never seemed to fit my passion of


failure
looking like
a trophy

as

Christ dangled
from a cross

did he understand
his influnce

on us?


or did the son of man
_____________________just die for Sin

-----------and see the---------
Gloryz of
heaven
++++++++ through suffering

strip me away
from the
critics
crufix
_______ pen

and write me down as a

thorn crown

blood
bath of forgiveness...

WELCOME TO THE 9TH GRADE

i _________________remember this young girl
___________________________________________ in high school,
––––+++++++++++she use to pass me letters.
not §§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§§love letters

dirty letters
asking
about the
size
of
my +++++++++++penis^^^^^^^^^^^°°°°°°°°



I remember
looking at her

and she'd
take her hands

and start measuring the length
°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°in the air––––––––––––––
making all
kinds of educated guesses

but none

could come close

it was always smaller then she wanted

but
no.

bigger...no, BIGGER

till


the teacher would take notice


and


ask her and I


what we where doing

I told her simply

trying to figure the diameter


of the room verus
the size of our universe


the teacher would reply

"well, knock it off...you're disrupting class"


"OK"
I
nodded

then

another note would end up on my desk

this time it
was

asking about
the first time I had sex

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I didn't get laid
–––––––––––––––till I was 19

and it was+++++++++++ horrible

I just layed there

like a slug ÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄ

waiting to leave my trail

back to 9th grade
ÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖ
english class

we had
hamlet to preform
so the girl


just dressed me up

in a dress
and
I did

my monoluge
;
in fear of the

wrestlers

that waited outside

the door
ready to kick my ass

my teacher had to let me go early

so I could escape God's

wrath.

to my love that thinks she should die...

when you get depressed

fart


you
usually


just need to let
off some


hot gases...

but if you're really
and

truly

sad



then


just pull the plug

and eveyone you

know

will


come out of the wood work



________________ singing


what_________-A-___glorious


day


the

lord has made


they'll

serve punch and cookies
at your

wake


b/c


____it'll truly



be a

celebration



of


life _________when


you're

finally
burried



deep enough




to keep



scilent...

what!!!!!
i

WASN'T DRUNK MY HAIR WAS LONG
AND i'M
ABOUT TO SNEEZE

POEM
tissue
all

long the

side

of her
///// \\\\\
//////////dress\\\\\\\\\\\

the under belly of life

spit out my last words
I really think this is it
one more
shot of courage
one more shot at the lights

oh poppa
one
+++++++++more
SHOT GLASS
toast

one more glup
down the hatch

and I'll see if God
has
a

barstool for

me

the wind blows south as the rain pelts the wipers

we left to get something
to eat at this Ethiopian
restaurant
on telegraph
and I couldn't
figure out if
))))))))))))the women(((((((((((((9
I was with, if they like the place b/c
they couldn't

________speak
_____good______English____0000or
if it was the food
the samboussa was
good deep fried
w/ lentils in the middle
&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&I delved
IN

it was a piece of magic

*************but earlier
I ate a double cheeseburger a side of
onion rings and two sprites
then when we returned from lunch
I snacked on M&Ms, then spicy bean dip
with organic chips

______________Carlo's rosi
one name
for 4.09$
a jug

I'm well on my way to a rughhhh...,,,,awakening*&^%%%$^^^^^
a spit in the toilet sort of moment
when clarity is flushed
and the sun beams through the kitchen window as sobriety
tries its damn est to


clear


you


up...

remain like a child

car shakes, the motion makes me
sick I wish to go back
to Oakland where people piss
in the middle of streets, where crack-
whores pull their pants
down
_____at 2 pm & point to
fur covered pussy where purity
has been plummeted by A 20 dollar fix. needles
in wrist smoke billows under the overpass.
liberals & Jews, Christians & Muslims,
youth & elderly
depleted ozone all
wake, eat, sin, breathe,
shit, fight, fuck
on
this
great
big
blue
ball

madness is in the stars, spaced out
never colliding.
shooting sometimes
moon covered-sun covered
galaxies black holes
the
war
is
space

the time
________is
___________unlimited
_______________________any man
_______________________can
________________create
______________________religion
or
say
he should
be
followed.

Brew

gut
burns
shit
stained
soul
red
_nose

wine
_port
glass